Day One.. again.

bummer. I wish I could tell you guys that I had a full day of abstinence today, but it didn’t happen for me. I started the day prepared, with a food plan and everything. however, having the plan doesn’t do anything unless you stick to it.

I got loose with my plan and had a few bites here and there… and even a snack (i don’t do snacks!). My willpower and my disease were battling all day, and guess who won? I got off work, and it was all down hill from there.

I did attend a phone meeting today, but even that was half hearted. I got on the call late and didn’t really pay attention.

good thing is, tomorrow is a new day. I’m going to take what i learned from my mistakes and cling to my food plan. I am going to attend another meeting and this time I’m taking notes.

Living half heartedly is what got me where I am today.. but I made a decision that I was no longer going to live like that… no more! I need to give recovery my full attention.

Anyways, i need to get to bed so I’m operating at full capacity tomorrow, I leave you with my food plan for tomorrow :)

MEAL	FOOD	POINTS
Breakfast	100% WW Bread	1
Breakfast	SF Coffee	2
Breakfast	2 poached eggs	3.5
Lunch	Carrots	1
Lunch	100% WW Bread	1
Lunch	2 eggs, poached	3.5
Lunch	SF Jello Pudding	1
Dinner	100% WW Pasta (1 2/3 cup)	5
Dinner	Crushed Tomato (1 cup)	1
Dinner	100% WW Bread	1
Dinner	4oz. Chicken w. veggies	2.5
Dinner	SF Jello Pudding	1
	TOTAL	23.5

Hi, I'm M and I'm a Compulsive Overeater.

Hey Bloggies!
Wow, so- I've been toying around with the idea of keeping an Abstinence blog for awhile now and finally took the plunge. I have been involved with Overeaters Anonymous for almost a year and had four good clean months of abstinence at the very beginning.

Unfortunately, I got it in my mind that I could somehow do this whole recovery thing without meetings, without support. Eventually that turned into me thinking I could handle no plan of eating, no accountability. Boy, was I wrong!

So begins my journey to abstinence once again. This time I am going to take everything I've learned from my successes and from my mistakes and use it to grab hold of serenity just a little (a lot) tighter than ever before. I will get into more detail tomorrow, but I have high hopes for this little blog of mine :)

I plan to post my plan of eating each night for the following day. I also plan to use this site to go through the questions in the Overeaters Anonymous Workbook and to reflect on things I am learning about my life through the clean eyes of abstinence. I hope that through my journey, this blog will also become part of my service and a way for me to carry the message on to other compulsive overeaters.

I am by no means (at all!) perfect. In fact, I am weak and and powerless over my disease... and I am happy to admit that. You see, the realization of powerlessness is the one thing that can bring me to recovery. I can't do this one my own, I need my Higher Power's help. My plan is simply that: my plan :)

this is not a diet, it's a journey to recovery. My plan of eating won't work for everyone and recovery is dependent on learning from others and attending meetings so that you can find what will work for you. All that said, I hope this blog is helpful and encouraging! I will post my plan of eating tomorrow as well as my "plan of action" dealing more with my compulsive tendencies. For now, I leave you with my Food Plan for tomorrow!

MEAL	FOOD	POINTS
Breakfast	Sugar Free Oatmeal	2
Breakfast	Sugar Free Coffee	2
Lunch	100% WW Bread w/ FF Bologna	2
Lunch	100% WW Crackers w/Hummus	4
Lunch	SF Pudding	1
Dinner	100% WW Pasta w/Veggies	5
Dinner	Chicken Breast	5.5
Dessert	SF Pudding	1
	TOTAL:	22.5